It has been a while since I posted here. But finally I think I have something worth saying. Or watching.
This video is about the pain of awakening and why it must be faced if we are to experience freedom and peace. I hope you will watch it, it is short and will only take 8 minutes of your valuable time. But if you have EVER felt existential anxiety or wondered if there is something wrong with you, watch this.
Here is some of the text:
Once you have had a glimpse of the program that dictates individual and collective behavior there is no going back and it becomes an ever deepening journey down the rabbit hole.
Everywhere you go you begin to see it in other people and feel it in yourself and it gets crazier and crazier.
And its not always easy or good.
There is a dark and difficult side to awakening, you begin to see the shadow and the negative side of people and yourself, and where it plays out unconsciously, where it ends up when you see yourself and other people.
It hurts, it hurts, because you see how unconscious so much of all this is, how patterned it is, how created and unconscious people are, and how unconscious you are.
And you begin to realize that you’ve been asleep all the time from being an infant when there may have been some awakeness with no awareness, and now you start to see that your belief system and thoughts that you thought were yours, that you didn’t question in any way were all programmed into you.
It hurts, it really hurts, and sometimes it may bring up panic because your world feels like it’s falling apart.
You become ‘an outsider, and what used to work no longer works. And all you feel is discomfort. Thats when you just keep going.
And you might become plunged into an existential black hole, wondering what has any meaning, and what is real and not real?
And that’s the job and the task, to dive into that hole willingly because one sees that there might be something in that hole that is so frightening. there might be something on the other side.
There might be some freedom in diving through.
And it’s up to you, and me, to find out for ourselves what it is.
No one can tell you, you have to find it for yourself. None of the spiritual teachers or gurus or guides or artists or visionaries or shamans or sages. No one. They can point to it and tell you about how it is on the other side, but it’s your hole, made for you by divine intelligence, and it your journey to go through it, or not, and see what happens.
The void is there for each of us. Keep going, keep on going and explore. Be bold and be brave and push on through to the other side.
This is the time to become the adventurer you really are, to become the pioneer and explorer. Only this time the explorer turns inwards.